Through the struggles and lessons of my fertility journey, I’m inspired to support women with their journey, so they don’t have to face it on their own.
I am now a proud mom of three, but it sure felt like a long road to get here. After three years of undiagnosed infertility while trying naturally, multiple rounds of Clomid, and four unsuccessful rounds of IUI, we conceived our beautiful twin girls through our second round of IVF. Shortly after our twins were born, we were pleasantly surprised to learn that I was four months pregnant with my son, who would be one year and a week apart from our twins.
During those years of infertility, I often felt like a failure as a woman: feeling lonely, anxious, hopeless, and shameful. I was embarrassed by what other people would think of the nontraditional conception of my twin girls, so I kept it a secret; I lied about it to anyone that asked (more here). But I was not only lying to the people who asked about my conception; I was lying to myself. I subconsciously held onto the guilt and shame by keeping IVF a secret. The truth was, I was so incredibly blessed with my baby girls through IVF and my son naturally. It didn’t matter that my journey looked different than most; this was my story. Finally, I let go of the lie and told everyone who would listen. I felt whole again with nothing to hide, and I was finally proud of my beautiful family.
However, my infertility struggles didn’t end here. As the youngest of four, I always wanted four kids, so somehow, I found myself right back where I was when I first wanted a family. I say this with sincere compassion and empathy, knowing how it feels to be willing to do anything for just one child. For two years, I let the desire for a fourth baby interfere with my joy for my kids and take over my life (more here). This challenge led to self-discovery, resolve, and purpose. I left my job as a jewelry buyer, enrolled at IIN (Institute of Integrative Nutrition) for coaching, and began to fulfill my purpose and mission; to support women while empowering them to own their unique fertility stories and break through the taboo of infertility.